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Monday, December 21, 2009

The next few weeks are going to be one big blurr.


Friday, December 18, 2009

Oh, insecurities. You've built your own little home in my heart.


Sunday, December 13, 2009

No posts on xanga usually means things are going well.
It's still the case.




I am at a 24 hour starbucks and i am ready to do some major psychology cramming for my final tomorow.
After that, i'm free. At least as free as it gets for now.

I wish it was summer. I don't like the cold or the snow. It's making me gloomy.
You're the only thing keeping me warm.


Sunday, December 06, 2009



Today, i want nothing more than to curl up in bed with a book and a hot cup of coffee and read. Alone. I want silence. I used to be able to lay in silence and relax but my brain wont give it a rest anymore. Books are a fantastic escape. A simple distraction.

My thoughts bump into each other and spin circles in my head. Only when i sleep am i ever really free of them. Insecurities have become a part of me. My other half. I'm not sure who id be without them.

I am not angry, anxious or even sad. I'm not. I feel restless and needy. I want to be alone but i want to feel the warmth of somebody's body next to me. I just don't want to have to speak. No words. Just silence. Is that possible anymore?

Of course i feel. It's all i do. I live my life based on these feelings. My heart defies all logic.
Everyday is a constant battle. My heart feels this but my head thinks this. Which one even makes sense anymore? They are both delusional.

I'm trying to be good but i'm much better at being bad.
Why fight it?


Friday, December 04, 2009

You have the same effect as drugs on me.
Withdrawals have become a routine.



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